As reluctant as I could be, I spent many months avoiding the nudge of God to write my testimony about Jesus Christ, my Shepherd and King. The reason behind is that it involves the spiritual world, the unhappy events with other Christians, my failures, and who would even believe my testimony. Since it is about what Jesus Christ has done for my life, I obeyed Him.
At the beginning of December 2017, the Holy Spirit asked me to write out the events that had happened in my life. It was because of all these unhappy events that had happened in my life, that caused my faith in God to shrink and almost down to disbelief.
My Background
I was born and raised in a small town called Sandakan. A place where Agnes Keith named it, “The Land Below the Wind.” Back in my memory, this place has always been peaceful and filled with friendly locals. Oh Yeah! Sandakan was also nicknamed ‘Little Hong Kong’ due to the strong presence of ethnic Chinese Migration from Hong Kong back in the days.
At a young age, I already felt and knew the Presence of God, I did not know what the feeling was really about. However, I know that someone not on this earth was watching over me.
At the age of 5, I was enrolled in a Kindergarten school called Sandakan Baptist Church. There, I was taught that God created the world and Jesus Christ came to earth as a ransom to wash our sins with His blood. We were taught how to pray before meals, and the stories of bibles from Abraham, Moses, and Joseph were shared as bedtime stories before our afternoon nap. I was convinced that God sees and knows everything, that one Christmas I wrote a card to him and hid it on my bedroom shelf (because my family isn’t Christian, I fear that if they saw the card, they might ridicule my action), as I carefully hide it, I had a glimpse of a vision that came through my eyes. ‘I saw two angels come to pick my card up and fly back to the Throne of God which shone really brightly at the center having two other angels with wings each at the side of His Throne. As a kid, I did not put much thought into that I just had a vision, as I was too young to understand all the signs and wonders.
As a kid, I did not put much thought that I just had a vision, as I was too young to understand all the signs and wonders.
My First Supernatural Encounter
After I had left the kindergarten, I never went back to church until 15. In between those times, I have had a few supernatural experiences that left me stunned and confused. I remember this incident really well. At the age of 11, one recess time, I was playing with my classmates at the playground, as I was on this ‘Roundabout’ (Or Merry-go-around), as my friends were pushing it around with full force. I heard a deep man’s voice talking to my ear and asked me to “Let Go” of my hands from the handle of the Roundabout.
I obeyed, thinking that it was God’s voice, needless to say, I flew out from the Roundabout and it shocked all of my friends. As they helped me up, by this time I hurt my knees really badly, they asked: “Why did you let go?”. I replied: “Did you not hear a voice talking?” Of course, all my classmates said No! and hurried me to the school office to get help for my bleeding knees.
This incident had engraved in my memory that something supernatural had happened. However, I had no one to share what I went through.
My First Dream
At the age of 14, in the month of September 2004. I had a dream, and inside that dream, I saw a flood and many darker-skinned people were on top of the woods and crying and screaming as the tide of the water was pulling them away. I remember waking up with cold sweat. That following week, when my mom suggested that the whole family go to Thailand for my summer school holiday, with much anxiety. I opposed her idea, and so we changed our trip to spend our Christmas in Singapore instead.
Rather, this experience that I kept in my heart is alerting me that there is something not right with me. As I felt someone was watching over me and keeping me alive from this catastrophe
On the 26th of December 2004, while watching the news on TV with my family. We saw the news of the Tsunami Earthquake that happened in Thailand, Indonesia, etc. The images of the Tsunami from the TV gave me chills and goosebumps as what I saw was similar to the dream I had back in September.
Again, I had never shared it with anyone. As I felt no one would be interested to know what dreams I had. Rather, this experience that I kept in my heart is alerting me that there is something not right with me. I felt someone was watching over me and keeping me alive from this catastrophe.
My First Experience of hearing the Audible Voice of God
It was one windy afternoon, at a meadow, at the age of 15, while planning for my suicide (Yes! Suicide). A strong wind suddenly came out of nowhere, and its force differentiated from the wind that was already blowing. In the wind, I heard a voice (soft and sweet).
It says: “Stop planning for the suicide, You are going to Australia, Brisbane soon.”
As the voice came like a command, I responded by standing up and making my way home. The most funny thing is I never doubted the voice that came out from the wind. I felt something was assured like a prophecy was spoken.
As I continued my high school studies, the students were given options to either continue our studies for Form 6 or just leave school after we finished our national exam (SPM) Form 5 grade. Thus, the government at that time had introduced a new program called “National Service Training Program” (NSTP) that would last 3 months.
85% of my classmates were chosen to serve in this newly set-up NSTP, but I was off the hook. Furthermore, I thought I would continue to study for my Form 6 after SPM like the rest of my classmates. Having said that, God was already up to something.
My First Prophecy Fulfilled
As mentioned above, I will be going to Brisbane, Australia for further study. I knew nothing about Australia, I only knew that the city of Perth was part of it.
In one of the Sandakan Education Fairs, I specifically only found booths that had Universities in Brisbane. University of Queensland (UQ) was my first option, however, in 2007, an education agent told me Queensland University of Technology (QUT) would be the best option for studying Business. After much research and knowing that one of my cousins was currently studying at that University. I changed my mind and enrolled in QUT with my high school results (since SPM results are only attainable in March 2008). However, my parents wanted me to go to University as soon as I turned 18 y/o.
In the beginning, I was reluctant to leave Sandakan, as I felt unprepared for the changes I had to go through, and I wanted to finish Form 6 with my classmates. I doubted whether QUT would even accept my results, since which University would accept a student with their high school results!?
With amazement, I received my Confirmation of Enrolment (CoE) letter after 2 weeks of submission. I only had 1 week to pack and say goodbye to my friends and classmates and was sent off to Brisbane, as I was already late for my Orientation week.
My First Tangible Touch from God
As I transit from Malaysia Airlines from Kota Kinabalu to Brunei. One of the flight attendants found out that I did not have a printout of my student visa (this is back in the days, when we needed a paper printout), and they had to stop me from transiting from Brunei to my Brisbane Flight. Or else I would be sent back to my way if Australia Border does not have that printout as well.
When it was firm that I couldn’t show them my student visa, I had to see my flight fly off without me. Hence, I panicked! It was my first time flying off to another country all on my OWN. I did not have friends and tried to contact my Education Agent in Sandakan.
Without a second to lose, I paid for a private Wi-Fi computer inside the airport. As I was running back and forth to the check-in counter. I held up my fear not to cry and shiver that I might not be able to even board the next flight from Brunei to Brisbane. In the midst of all this unplanned event and holding so much fear, I felt a firm touch pressed on top of my head and heard “Chill! Everything will be alright.” (At this young age, I didn’t know who Holy Spirit is yet).
As I was running back and forth from the Check-in counter (to secure the next flight the next day), I ran to buy a telephone card to call back to Sandakan (Malaysia) and ran to the public telephone booth to inform my mom what had happened and asked her to call the Education Agent to scan that printout and email to me, and ran back to the rented computer. The owner of the computer stopped me and asked: “Young girl, I see you are running around the airport, what is wrong?” After explaining to him about my situation, he refunded the money I used to rent his computer and told me that the food in his store was free of charge for me. I was really stunned by his generosity as I did not expect that such a stranger would show me kindness and care in a foreign land.
After the fuss, my education agent finally emailed me the scanned printout of my student visa, after printing it out. I went back to the check-in counter that rejected my transit that morning and what came next really blew my mind. They reissued a new air ticket free of charge!? even without my request. The experience from Brunei Airlines is awesome and nice!
I spent one night in the airport hotel and the next day. I finally boarded the airline that would send me to Brisbane for further Education.
The first prophecy was fulfilled with much action and excitement.
